I don't know what I'm supposed to be feeling, I don't feel anything, I feel numb. I get angry with being with the same people, stuck inside all day long because I can't leave my nan in the house on her own when she pretty much only came on holidays so she could see me, I can't show them I'm angry, it shows ungreatfulness. I suppose I am, I'm being selfish but damn it I just want some time away from the stupid lame jokes and the constant sound of people's voices because they all seem to want to strike up conversations with me. Ugh.

Whatever, I'm just fed up, but I'm barely gonna be home the next couple of days so fuck it. Hmm I wanna daaaaaaance now, damn song.

Right, gonna go dance around in my pjs now, maybe it'll tire me out :)