I have so much to say. But ill let you off easy. So its been a while, to say the least. And my stomach has been twisted in so many different directions the last week im not sure my innards will ever find their way back to normal. Ive loved and lost. And lost again. (yea its possible) I guess we're at a good point again. I assume. He means so much to me. Boys are crazy though. I seriously am not on good terms with motorized vehicles right now. They shouldnt fuck with people i care about like that. If something would have happend to him i would be dead. no joke. But everythings alright, and thats all thats important. Im not going to take anything for granted anymore. Things can change so fast, its not even funny. So my internet turned on today. Pretty exciting. I'm going to sacramento in a couple weeks. On the 9th. Till the 15th. I hope its fun. I think it will be though. Well alright, i think im over with this entry. Ive been writing all my feelings in my notebook so i feel like ive been updating everyday. Bleh im so much of a stronger person now, i think. haha I am, though. I think ill make it through this. take care ♥