It's so indescribable trying to relearn everything you thought you knew about someone. I feel so hurt, so alone and confused... it's really something i've never dealt with before. Part of me wants to hate him for the things hes done to me, for the things hes done to his friends, and for the things hes done to a girl i barely know but for some reason feel like i understand her so well. The other part of me wants to help him. Sometimes i feel like maybe all of this happened while we were together because i was someone who could help. Someone strong enough to overlook how hurt i was and to try and fix him. But... thats probably just be trying to be optimistic. I really dont know what went wrong... and why it went so wrong so fast. I feel really helpless because theres nothing i can do that can bring immediate gratification. I just have to wait and let the storm take its course. You have to let yourself want to be helped because without your consent nothing can be achieved. I'm going to pray for you every night. I don't know exactly who i'm praying to but if theres someone out there that can help you, maybe they'll hear me. I really need you to get better. You were my best friend, you were my everything. I'll get better with time, but i need you to be okay again, just for you.