Happy 50th entry. Even though i got another one of these things jam packed with lost loves and bad memories. It's nice to start over sometimes. Hard to admit but its not always bad. Theres always room for improvement. So thats what i have been trying to do. Improve my life. Try to start over. Try to stop thinking about things that only get me down. I've been quite successful ill have you know. Its just that even the new and improved things have room for improvement. Thats something I'm not okay with. I need perfection at everything i do. I can't rest without being positive i did the best, not only that i could do, but that could be done. Which is probably the main cause of all my stress. My strive for unrealistic goals. I set myself up. Other than that today was the first day of classes. I have managed to miss 2/3. Go kassie. First class i got there 2 min early to find the doors already locked. Which is awesome. Especially on the first day of class and all. The thing that ticks me off is that i wasn't even late. And my phone is fast. On purpose. To rule out things like that happening. So because of this incident, im going to drop the class. I know, but w/e. New game plan on the love front. Reverse psychology i suppose. In a way. I guess it's fucked. I know it's fucked and i feel bad. But I'm definitely running out of options and in this case change is BAD. Very bad. I don't like taking the time to get to know someone new. Thats too much work. So Game Plan "play him" goes into action tonight. hopefully im not setting myself up for more disappointment. If so, ill just kill myself. Kidding. Oh i got a new phone. But i have class now so im taking off. byebye