I'm at such a strange transition right now. One part of me wants to leave and travel far away and never come home. i want to experience awesome adventures that i can tell people later on in life. I want to struggle, i want to thrive, i want to not know where i might be 6 months down the road. The other part of me wants to go back to school. Think seriously about a major or a degree in something serious. Part of me wants to become a doctor or a lawyer. Become something that means something. at this point right now it seems like i have so many paths laid out in front of me. I'm turning around in circles stumbling over my feet not knowing which one to follow. And with time going by i see my friends and acquaintances skipping down them like it was the easiest decision. I want to have fun while im young, and at 18 i shouldnt be concerned about aging. Im terrified of having a "normal" life. i'm terrified of being one of those people commuting home from LA, looking tired and unhappy and bitter. Nothings set in stone yet and maybe thats what i'm afraid of. i think too much. yeah? yeah.