I am so stupid...i told my slef i would never cry over a stupid boy..and what do i do i cry over a boy....0o0o that gets me mad..that everytime i think of him ((josh)) it makes me sad..o i want to get over it..but i cant..sometimes i wish i could just disapear into a world where noone no's me n i could - start over - again..all because of a boy..i must b stupid or in denile or sumthin..this is so mest up...i lost one of my best friends becuase of a break up..i no i cant b perfect but it ain tmy fault who i am..i will try to change as best as i can but i am never gunna give into him...o i wish we can go back to the way we usted to be ...well i think it is about time i get ova this mess..he has n i shud to but i cant hide my feelings im hoplessly devoted... GOD IM STUPID well theres that... later