well heres the latest i was soppsed to g snowboarding waith my special friend ((ryan)) and casey..BUT i tld them to meet me in the loby at 10 but it is now 10:10 and i aint there..WOOPS there gunna b so fuckin pissed i told them to wait n now im not goin..im goin shoppin wit J-mom-->> (jody travs mom)and well i guess ill go snowboardin another time..o i hope they dotn hate me... well since im goin shoppin again this week cuz i got to go monday cuz i got these braces lol and my mom thought shoppin wud help which it did..but i got in a huge big fight wit her..and i mite have to move..but she sed sorry its gunna take lots of thinkin but she is my mom so i guess the nice thing is to give her another chance x life sucks x any way.. I REALLY REALLY REALLY ((times billions)) love josh but he is probably gunna go out wit her ((not namin)) i will b rele upset but if he happy i guess im happy..NOT well yeh on the out side but on the inside i will b crying...all i have to say is those eyes..are a killer WELL oh my..guess who just called me ryan n casey there pissed like i sed and they sed im a FAILURE and tehre mad at me..cuz they had to wait for me..BIG SORRYZ to them SORRY BOYZ PLZ FORGIVE x and another thing there is sumthin about john that makes u wana liek him i just havent figured out wut it is yet..probaly his eyes wow wut is wit me n these boys eyes BLUE EYES holy shit i have the coolest damn bus and bus driver in da damn world..she was like blastin the music and everyoen was standin up and dancin well me n faith n john n trav were at least and i think we even got ashley in da sprit...that nite when i got off the bus i was like thank u thank u very much lol and cindy--da buss driver was like jackie is leain teh bus it was liek so funny wow good times on a bus and more to come buss 33 never forgotten oh my god--ryan and casey keep callin me and beggin me to go n i cant cuz im goin shoppin wit bre..and they wont stop askin me...and they sed to bad im goin and i ain and now there upset..and they wont hang wit me 2morrow..Ok anyway they sed we mite b able to hang tomarow..god i feel so bad now i like blew them off..well at the party last nite i mad some new friends like wit brittany and shannon i usually dont talk to them but i started to talk to them at the party..alot of ppl at the party didnt liek me but wutever they had to stand me..o n i even had a good conversation with justin who like hates me ((josh's brother)) and i spoke to otehr ppl to it was like fun..yeh thats da word fun... also i didnt get to see trav cuz i was soppsed to go to travs but instead they like forced me into goin to teh party liek ryans mom and sister came out and all and i liek had to go so i totally blew off trav n josh was at his house so i blew him to probably and bre that nite.. wow over this week N i just keep cahngin my plans and im like blowing ppl off lol well im out ill rite later to tell u how the mall went..