oh yah.. and you know what? Doctors are way nicer to me than anyone I actually know. I think maybe I should go live in the hospital. That would be great. In spite of the fact that all the times I've been to see doctors recently totally sucked. That's okay though. At least they care. Funny.. they care more than me. And then I feel guilty. Verrry guilty. But I don't think it can help enough. I think I'll go cry now.. too late.. damn. that reminds me.. I was supposed to call a counselor a long time ago. Didn't. GUILT. And I still have an appointment to make up, because I missed one before. MORE GUILT. AND I OWE PEOPLE MONEY> GUIIIIILT!! arrgh.