I feel a bit better now but still feel bad. I wont want to face school tomorrow All the homework i know ill have Ahhhh im not ready for it Maybe ill "be sick" tomorrow as well I cant, i must go back to school My friends need me They are nothing without me If only i could explain to them what to do when im gone Maybe theyll understand Sickness of the mind This is no drill Im getting tired of the medication The feel of pills sliding down my throat The scratching of my rib cage against my lungs I hate this Im glad i feel better But i dont feel like going to school tomorrow What do i do I smell so bad Everything about these days of sickness are bad Ill take a shower and hope that the warm water will sooth me My mind is dancing around and around It has no clue what it is, and what it wants to be Its confused Trying to figure out things that seem impossible Sweet insanity The taste is bitter The pills stick to the back of my throat I cough My throat burns These lungs are being scraped This sucks I sound so pathetic I dont care Ive turned into this image Maybe someone will care I hope to once again see it I cant see your face in my mind Its invisible I dont think my mind can handle the thought The pain It brought me Suicidal... No, ill be fine Dont worry about me I miss the thought But.. I cant see your face in my mind...and im happy Leave me to die