I am so lost for a couple of months now ive been trying to figure out who i am what ive become where im headed in life i cant figure anything out everythings a blur i do a lot of things for the wrong purposes and i do all the right things in secrecy to make matters worse everyone has completely shut theirself off from me no one comes to me for anything anymore well, thats not true but its so rare for someone to ask me hey richard, can you help me with something or hey richard want to come over in the mornings of school i go and i stand there alone i feel like theres no group of people that would mind my company i guess this is why im moving to chesterfield something had to happen i guess its that i care about people too much anyone well not anyone if you really get on my bad side i could care less however, there are few people like that anyway, i just care about people way too much then they walk all over me like i was never there to begin with it makes me so sick yet, i let it happen i dont even care that they are using me i just love helping i dont know anymore guys and none of you want to help me