Know what i was thinking about? Im am never appreciated... and it hurts in a way..because i always compliment someone else like "your so good at this" or "thats so awesome!" or "thanks a lot, i appreciate it" i HARDLY ever have one of that said to me..or anything like it.. im sick of it... i know im not all that great or cool or anything..but...it would be nice to just be appreciated.. Like yesterday in gym, there were 4 of us girls on my team, and 4 girls on the opposite team, and we were complaining because it was unfair that the opposite team had 2 of the best players. Well everyone's started saying what a person on our team was good at.. "Brandi's good at shooting, sarah is good at dribbling, and she's tall holly is good at getting it and everything sarah (me) is good at.............uh............ (10 seconds later) umm..... your just you" after that i was like 'fuck this, im not fuckin gonna even try to play anymore, im not fuckin good at anything apparently' i didnt say it out loud, i played it off like a joke.. usually overweight people do that too....but really it hurts inside... knowing that im not good at anything, i know im not, but people saying it out loud...it sucks... i have no talents or anything...everyone knows it... but when a person cant even be appreciated by anyone, it kinda kills them inside.. anyway.... ive kind of forgiven karen and chane..i know its not the last of me feeling hostility towards them...i just keep getting nagged by a bunch of people for being 'mean' to them. HOW THE HELL WAS I MEAN TO THEM?? by standing up for myself? i dont know.. fuck people.. brandi, jade, and gretchen..the only people i can really stand right now...and a few others.. i was hoping to see Talon today to give him back his hoodie, but i didnt, so oh well.. it snowed yesterday.. and my duck died yesterday. life is going shitty...