Whats wrong with me?? im seriously doubting my sanity i think things happen when they dont, i blur the lines between reality and my made up world. i dont feel anything i want to i fucking NEED to i have every single reason to be happy but i dont feel anything, not sad, not happy, not even ok. just...nothing make it go away make it go away make it go away i want to feel the happiness i know i would have if i could youve done more for me today than anyone ever has and then we kissed and i didnt know how to handle it so i started having a panic attack and i couldnt breathe and i couldnt move i just couldnt exist i wanted to be in a dark shadow left alone to think but i was surrounded by people who were watching i dont even remember how your lips felt or how it happened if i try real hard i might be able to make something up and believe its real its probably what will happen god i know i love you but i cant feel it and its killing me...