So..thought this place could use a litle sprucing up. it is spring afterall! and, this IS my place to run to, and it got wayy to dark and depressing hehe ...the ad at the top page is asking me if im a new dad... wow lol anyway..things are...well im getting better at trying to control my life..aint working to well...but im trying try having a crush on 3 different people, 2 of which your invisible to and 1 to which it would be betraying a friend. and ones a girl. and shes my friend of 2 years. yeah..pretttty complicated. plus she always talks about her ex, and how they are friends with benefits and how she would go back out with him in an instant. I dont wanna tell her anything in case it ruins the friendship we have... and the other guy..i hardly know him but i like him a lot..and he just doesnt seem interested...so...ugh. its hard to have crushes... and the other guy..i went out with him last year and things just kind of died. and then this year, my good friends [who im not really good friends with anymore] went out with him and they got pretty serious and they broke up today and i like him again and he hugs me a lot and everything and its just like "wow..im prospectivly hurting a friend" and thats just not the person i wanna be... i hate having a crush, let alone 3 so.. im kinda losing control there lol *sigh* that felt kinda good to get out