Arg. does the title of the song put it any more right? i have to leave stacy behind even though i want her so much. why does it hurt when people just let things go when you ask? most of the time people never mean it. it kind of shows like they dont really care... i want to run away just to see who'll follow i want to die just to see who'll care... i want to be dying just to see who'll come to my rescue. im so insanely scared it will be no one though. like my mind processes that it'll be no one. arg. she doesnt care. i took huge chances with her and it was all just to pass the time. you know, you think your leading the game but then you realize you didnt have the other players figured out at all. you were wrong to think you could be in control. dead wrong. she said "better off friends" i say better off dead. i broke up with him. the guy i would scream and cry just to hug. i did it for my own selfish vices. because i cant handle not being able to mess with other peoples minds. i cant stand not being able to steal control. i know im being rediculous but. what. what the fuck do i do. im me and that is never OK. im me and that means never being what others expect and find appealing. bury me baby, im just a walking corpse after you ripped my heart out