"I believe I can see the future Cause I repeat the same routine I think I used to have a purpose But then again That might have been a dream I think I used to have a voice Now I never make a sound Every day is exactly the same There is no love here and there is no pain Every day is exactly the same Sometimes I think I'm happy here Sometimes, yet I still pretend I can't remember how this got started But I can tell you exactly how it will end I'm still inside here A little bit comes bleeding through I wish this could have been any other way But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do" im..im not happy im nothing near it and i dont know what to do anymore i dont think im worth anyones time i dont think they even care anymore im not sure what my value to society is or if i even have one i wouldnt even chance suicide again, it never seems to work, it never seems to heal things either but idk maybe leaving maybe that will work maybe maybe i will be ok for once everday for a long time now has just felt like a bad dream that i cant keep up with like nothing feels real like if i tried to touch someone id just fall forward right through them like a ghost like i need a theatrical effect just to get someone to notice im alive like the song "good to know if i ever need attention all i have to do is die" WHY DO I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU?!?!?! i dont care about all the others your the one i want your the one i need and im NOTHING this is agony in the form of silence will someone please just splash me with water to wake me up from this nightmare???