6:35:47 PM): the few things keeping me alive and im pushing them away. why? 6:37:38 PM): i don't know? maybe b/c you think everything and everyone will leave you, so maybe you're pushing them away b/c you don't wanna get hurt anymore then you already are? but even though you know i'm here for and will never leave you, you still have that little bit of you that thinks i will...and maybe you're choosing to believe that little bit instead of believing that i'll always be here 6:37:44 PM): if that made any sense at all... 6:38:19 PM): that, it's easier to believe that i won't be, then i will be 6:38:21 PM): yeah im a scared little abused puppy... 6:38:23 PM): so you won't get hurt 6:38:41 PM): pathetic and quivering in the corner... 6:39:11 PM): :[ and i'm the one trying to make you better, and you don't know what to do, so you try and bite me. 6:39:26 PM): b/c you don't wanna get hurt...b/c you don't know who to trust anymore. 6:39:52 PM): i'll raise my hand to pet you, and you don't know whether i'm gonna pet you, or hit you 6:40:04 PM): b/c you've lost sense of direction 6:40:15 PM): or...emotion. 6:40:22 PM): yeah..ive learned when i put all my trust in one person they tend to shatter it completely and leave me alone in the dark with a serial killer 6:40:41 PM): yeah, but how have i done that? 6:41:40 PM): idk. but we talk less...like every other person i put my life forth for...soon we wont even be friends anymore.. 6:41:51 PM): yes we will. how am i supposed to feel when you finally say you'll call and you dont????? "i guess promises are better left unsaid" im a mess and i cant put myself together i have loose ends i cant tie up i am a loose end ....im an end...