my dad is getting to me really bad. i fight back, he hates it, he thinks its disrespect, i think its self defense. i wont take his verbal abuse. only a little longer but i really cant leave this behind me. not when they are so important[yet so not] to me. idk im lost like a puppy, but one thats been beaten so its scared of anything that moves and shows emotion dont get to close, i might lash out, backed into a corner, defend my withering pathetic life. all in all i just want someone to love me...but i cant let that happen because its been carved into my head that no one couuld love me and all there is is pain in taking chances...