i dont know what it is. im usually pretty chipper around the holidays. especially before people come, but lately ive just kind of been all freaky, ya know? my mom has the flu. so its just me and my dad for a few days, wich is usually fine, but.. i dont know what it is. i just have a weird feeling about the house. everyting is the same, but it looks different. it doesnt really feel like home anymore. im not too sure what it is. you would think that i would be so happy to be home for the night after being out every evening since monday. im getting all weirded out at the simplest things. nothing feels the same. probably because my mind expects me to be out untill 11, again. but i swear, if i catch whatever the hell it is that my mom has, it isnt going to be pretty. last time that happened i passed out and thought someone broke into the house, because a turkey buzzard flew into the side of it and was tapping on the window. trust me, that was creepy, but when your dazed and disoriented, its worse. i dunno. i guess im just gonna chill tonight, and get some stuff done for monday. later. laur