i want out. i want to leave. i dont want to be here anymore. or better yet: i want her gone. i want her out of my life. i want her to stop ripping to shreds everything and everyone i love. she acts like a child and gets pissed that i dont stand up for myself. then gets pissed when i do. if i can never win, then what's the point of trying in the first place? i guess i can just follow a dear friend's lead and just let it roll of my back. not let it get to me. its working pretty well, so far. its not fair to keep dad living like this, and i guess its not fair to me either. but whatever...i dont have a choice. you play with the cards life deals ya. life is life. do what you can. enjoy it while you have it. thats what i intend on doing. they cant take that much away from me. laur