so..another weekend wasted. friday night wasnt bad. it was silent firday at the do-jang which was beautiful. no one bothered me all night while i was working. it was creepy, though, because the class was in the other wing, and they were really quiet (go figure). there was no one besides me on the other side. it was soo quiet. i started to miss just the noise of people. not necessarily the sounds of voices, just the sounds that people make when they exist. it was creepy. matt showed up which was pretty cool. i just saw a face in the door and got kind of nerveous. i thought it was the kids who bang on the window when they walk by and see me. it was great watching him and bryanna keeping "quiet". haha. saturday was a bore. i avoided my mom all day. wound up cleaning base boards. blah blah. lish and mike stopped by before they went to the winter ball. they looked so great! i felt all special that they stopped by. after they left, things were kind of peachy (as opposed to the tenseness before) and then mom freaked. she got me to yell, which doesnt happen. i flipped out. talked things over, and was shaky for the rest of the night. today was a waste. we started decorating for christmas. every chance i got, i would be up here typing something for school. i really do love this holiday, but i think its kind of ruined here. im pissed that i couldnt pick out a tree this year. the one they got is some short, scrawny, scrappy thing. i refuse to work with it, but im the only one who decorates anymore, because im the only one around here who gives a fuck abotu this holiday. ill be so pissed when i leave for college because i know that these two wont do anything until i come home and make them. it pisses me off. there is no holiday spirit around here. the one time of year im happy has to be ruined. happy holidays laur