have you ever looked through an old yearbook to see how people have changed and come across something they wrote to you? (guess what i did today) its kind of weird what you see. i never knew i had such amazing friends, whether i considder them as such, or not. i guess i never really realized that i have these people there for me when i really need them. i was so caught up in being there for them and fending for myself in the quicksand of high school. its amazing how treasured a school-issued book can be, and how good it feels to read something thats so old but still feels new. then you realize that noghting's changed. and its nice. then, there's the flip side to this situation, as always. when you look back, you see the heartfealt entries from the kids you didnt expect to get them from, then you see the ones you got from those you would, and they're the ones that are all "H.A.G.S.!!! lol...skool wuz funn this yeer!" its sad. then something happens and you see why. and then you wonder why you wasted years of your life with them. but i suppose thats life. as much as i dont want to sound optimistic or whatever, right now, its true. life is life. and either way, it sucks. life is the one thing you should be worried about because it can get fucked up in an instant, and it can screw you over just as fast. laur