i think this is the first time that i am satisfied with not knowing what will happen next. i have to have every detail planned out exactly how it will be and not expect change, but i think i have learned that everything changes. i think im starting to accept the change. im still not feeling, but im starting to accept. i never liked change, but now im starting to live by it. as we all grow up, im starting to let things happen and fall into place as they will. i just dont know anymore, and im satisfied with that. all i need to know is that i am physically alright, and able to continue with my life whatever laur ps there is no message here. this is about as blunt as it gets. straight from my mind, no scheme is behind this. the messages are in your head.