i dont know if i ever like the oncoming season. except for spring. nobody notices spring. i should be loving summer. i man, my birthday is in a month, im going for my license, and in september we'll be seniors. this summer should be one of the best, but i already feel like shit and i finished school today. it's too early for this shit. im coming up on to one year until i can go. i dont even know if that will happen. my parents are threatening to not send me to the school i want to go to. it's not because we cant afford it, there are ways around that. they are saying no because they know thats wheere i want to go. they keep pullng this shit and, honestly, it's getting old. i just need a few days out. that might not even happen. i cant take much more. i have my sanity, but that cant get me ot of here. its all i want. for my birthday, i want you to kidnap me and take me far away. laur