blah what a horrible weekend . i know that i was, unintentionally, a total bitch to him . i know i made him miserable . and its not even the worse that i'm going to do yet .. i feel like shit hurting him, i really honestly do care about him so much . and he's been through so many horrible times in his life, how can i give him another ? i honestly wish that i loved him . that i was the right girl for him . but i'm not :( and this weekend has proved it to me . i've made the decision that i have to end it .. tonight .. soon .. oh god why are break ups so hard . i've been on both end of the scale . i've had my heart broken severely, and i've broken hearts . and if i could choose, it would be me getting my heart broken instead of him . i don't want to do this . i really really really really really don't want to do this but i HAVE to before i go insane . i know i'm doing the right thing . why is it so hard ? blah . okay . how do i do this ? advice ??