i've just decided that pretty much all of my problems right now are coming from my job.. mostly my lack of money. i earn fuck all. it was supposed to be more by now, but my hours still havent gone up because they don't really need me, and i have no chance of ever getting a pay rise heh. there is so much i want/need that i can't afford.. i can't even afford to apply for a loan. i want a new car, i want to travel, i want to save to move out.. these things are pretty much impossible right now. i don't work enough, which means i'm at home the majority of the time which gives me WAY too much time to sit around and feel sorry for myself. there is nothing to DO at work. i am bored 90% of the time. i can't ask for time off or i'd be sulked at for like two weeks. which means i miss out on lots of things i'd like to do with my friends. but it is seriously too much trouble to even ask. i'm not learning anything new there i'm not meeting new and exciting people i can feel my personality changing, the more i hang out with her. i don't want to end up the same as her. but its easier to just go along with it to avoid conflict. its going to ruin our friendship if i stay there much longer. i can't GET anywhere from here. its not helping me in getting another job or figuring out what i want to do with my life its definitely not to work in retail forever. especially not on such a small scale. i feel like i'm being fucked around.. when i was just trying to do them a favour. and now i'm trapped here. its dragging me down...