this relationship had the potential to be the most happiest perfect love i've ever had. i could imagine myself marrying him. he is a wonderful guy

but i don't know if i can live a whole life wondering what else is going on

i am sick of lies. i don't know if there is anything else going on. i don't want to not know

i want something i can be sure of. i feel like i am just floating around hanging onto this one tiny thin thread of trust

just clinging to it with everything i have.

it hurts knowing that i can't trust the one person i want to share my whole life with :( i don't know if i can do it