i'm so fucking sick of being sad. i'm sick of doing nothing. i'm sick of wanting to do nothing. i don't know how to feel better. all i can do is seriously just sit here and feel sick to my stomach. i've barely been able to eat lately. i need for something good to happen but i know i can't just sit around and expect it to. but i can't help it.. i need to be rescued from this place. i need an oppurtunity. although, i don't even know if i would take it. i feel so incredibly lame. please god let things get better soon. i do not want this anymore.