so i cried at work today. how fucking lame. it was in the toilets, and nobody saw me. but god.. i haven't cried for so long. i thought i was different now. how the fuck did something so small get to me. i guess because i felt as though i was being singled out and personally attacked. it really wasn't very fair. i know it makes me sound so in love with myself, but i know its just because i am so much younger and prettier than her. she was on some kind of power trip because she doesn't like that i'm new and attractive. i shouldn't give her the satisfaction of crying. i feel like i've betrayed myself. this job is so fucking shit and i am embarassed to be there. but i'm good at it and it pays well. blah. hopefully not too much longer before i'm gone from this whole stupid town. going to go stock up on xanax. i need to feel better.