why the fuck do i like him so much he is the exact opposite of me he is everything i never wanted in a guy he is loud and obnoxious he's soso arrogant he says the most un-sensitive things at exactly the wrong times he tells his friends my personal stuff he doesn't like my music i pay for everything, i always drive he is best friends with his ex-girlfriend and he talks about her all the time he destroys everything in my house the majority of the people in this town don't like him my best friend doesn't like him my sister-in-law doesn't like him i can just imagine my family doesn't approve i've lost quite a few of my guy friends because i can't hang out with them as much there is every possibility that is he going to cheat on me, no matter how much i say i trust him. he's done it to other girls when i'm with him i feel like i need to be better to keep up. i know he doesn't want me to, but i feel like i need to change to be better for him this is all so much more trouble than its worth. but every time i'm with him, i can't stop smiling. he's so incredibly cute, and he makes me laugh. his family is lovely. he makes his bed every day, which is adorable. he is very clean and always smells so good. when i'm with him i feel soso safe, something i've never felt with any guy i've been with before. other girls are jealous of me, and it makes me feel good, which is silly i know but its still there. and when it comes down to it, i know i can trust him. i was upset the other night and i was being such a sook. and he asked me what was wrong but i wouldn't tell him and i was just being really immature and nasty. any other guy would have given up within five minutes, i'm sure. but he ditched his friends and layed with me for atleast half an hour asking me what was wrong. i felt so stupid telling him but he somehow managed to get me to tell him. and he was so sweet and gentle and explained everything to me, and he held me so tight and actually made me feel like everything was okay again. isn't that what every girl wants when they are upset? i love being with him, so much some times that i don't even know what to say. i love the way he looks at me with this kinda half-smile on his face and i'm like whaaat -_- and he goes "nothing. you're just pretty, girl." and he always picks me up and carries me places which is sometimes embarassing but really does make me feel very good. and he gives me the sweetest kisses and i honestly think i could kiss him forever and he is so fucking sexy khjkjhl this relationship makes no sense. to everyone from the outside, and to me. and maybe to him too, i don't know. i don't understand why he likes me. he has a billion girls after him that are way prettier and cooler and funner and more easy-going. i feel too boring for him. i am way too much hard work. i'm sure it won't take long for him to realise but god, i don't want him to leave me, as inevitable as it is. i think i am in love.