Wow...i never thought i wud ever feel liek i waz bein disowned by mi family...mi own flesh an blood..thiz weekend waz so bad i resorted 2 thinkin bout the different wayz a person cus commit suicide.... Friday started out not so good..i had a not so good phone convo wit cris..bout all thiz stuuf on mi mind tht i probably shuda kept 2 miself..but it felt kinda good 2 let it out Neway..i started 2 cry at wun point an im not sure but i think we wete pretty close 2 either breakin up or "takin a break"..yea not good..but i think we're okai now Saturday was spent me arguing wit mi parents an tryin 2 keep 2 miself..mi step-dad thinkz im gettin smart wit him,an wont realli talk 2 me Nemore,an it seems he perfers his "real"daughters..mi mom iz on his side blamin me 4 everthin,an grittin on me 4 every lil thing..it got real bad 2 the point she waz callin me names an i once agin started cryin...thn later we went 2 mi grandparents house 2 celebrate mi abuelas b-day..an lemme tell ya da onli good thing bout da weekend waz dat cake..it waz FREAKIN MAD GOOD!! sad aint it?the highlite of mi weekend waz cake..aha Sunday went 2 church saw rafael..went home ,shut mi self in mi room till mi mom forced me out 2 eat..more arguin wit mi mom cuz mi dad an me werent talkin...an i had 2 get out of da house so i went wit my mom,an german an his mom on sum lil erren cuz there waz no way in hell dat i waz gonna stay wit mi dad an nazi sisters who by the way hav subjected 2 suckin up 2 mi parents an gettin me in trubl... an ya knoe wat the worse partiz?i didnt even get 2 talk 2 cris at all..nowun at all actually...i wanted 2 talk 2 him so bad..i seriously thought i waz gonna die..havin no contact wit him wat so ever whn i realli needed sum1 made me realize how much i love him,i kept thinkin bout how much i missed him,how much i wanted 2 hug him,an how much i wished he waz there holdin me 2 tell me tht everythin wud b okai...i cudnt sleep last nite..i guess i waz actually excited bout goin 2 skool 2 see HIM...go i regreat those things i told him on friday...y do i alwayz hav 2 b sucha....speakerb4ithinker...LMAO...i knoe not a real word..cris jus gave it 2 me im talkin 2 him rite now... ♥CRIS♥ aighty den i gtg Peace out younginz!!