At times I wonder where this is going... this... this being everything; my life, my school, my relationships, my everything. I'm a very uncertain person, I don't know where anything is going, nor do I care to be honest... but still at times I do wonder... To be honest, what I'm feeling most uncertain about is Zach and I... I mean... where's it going? Yes, i love him, and he loves me but I mean when you live 11 hours away from someone, it gets harder and harder. I don't know what it is... I just don't feel like it's fair to him, I mean, he can have so many people that he'd actually be able to see whenever he liked... but instead he chooses the girl that lives farthest away. Funny that "our song" started playing just as I started talking about him... /sigh I don't know what to do to be honest, it's just that... this isn't a real relationship, I mean... yea like I said I love him, and I still get that funny feeling when he tells me he loves me... but is this really leading anywhere? I obviously don't want to end this, I'm just asking questions... and I needed a place to vent.