my life is so messed up and the worst part is i dont even care.... i like him...but i dont love him i want to date others but i cant hurt him i've lost all faith in love and i cant figure out where im going i'm so lost in my own filth that i've lost friends i guess i should be used to it not like i've ever been good at keeping them i just wish for once life could work out with out me in it.... people are sick of me complaining so i would rather bottle it all up and just stick to myself i mean thats all i've really got in this world... ~me myself and i