You failed

messed up

Made fools of us all

with your ruby blood you let

spill on the hard wood ground.

Your reassuring smile seems crazy now

as I grab your hand that dishonesty grips mine

my face can’t help but notice this

God forsaken place

with walls of grey and floors turned red

The reason still haunts me

if only you had let go.

You were always running

from my warm comforting arms

like they were poison to your crust.

Pain became your only friend,

when you refused to let others in.

Waterfalls from your eyes

but still you choose to be tough

letting us believe your lies

of foolish negligence

now it’s getting late

the ambulance is moving too slow

your eyes are loosing focus

searching for a star that will never show

and your heart is loosing hope

with every drum beat that goes by

the clock ticks reverberate as I wait for you to die

I could have been your home,

your rock,

or your guide

rejection stung like a thousand pins and needles.

But it’s worse now

seeing you lie on the ground,

like… the knife wound

made upon your arm

stuck into my heart as well.