i feel so alone i've been thinking thats why i get drunk or fake it at least because when im acting ridiculous people actually give a fuck about me people seem to care and talk to me and ask how i am she's an idiot really giving up a friend like zach because sometimes he's busy zach said one thing to me when i told him... "she's one of the only girls that can actually make me angry" she's someone he cares about if i had a friend like that i would be happy but she goes and fucks it up over a few missed calls and some cancelled dates i see how she would get mad but to just completely delete him from her life if i did that to her she wouldnt give a fuck no one would i keep coming to this wall i feel so alone here my few friends are north and the ones i do have here suck i'm always going to be alone i feel like no one can relate i keep telling myself its stupid im 19 but i can't even hold on to the friends i have cause i feel like no one understands me no one really gets me and everyone is so busy with their own lives to care