one more way i fucked up my life
i had sex with a boy
one i don't even necessarily like
but i keep trying to fill the void
now i feel more alone than ever
i dont care
but i skewed everything up for my own selfish reasons
because no matter what i do
no matter who says what
i will always feel alone in this world
this world of hurt and pain
some call it uniqueness others just go by
me me i deal with things the only way i know how
by sabotaging every friendship i have
by running away when things get hard
by screaming at the top of my lungs
and by giving up
over and over again
what do you have??
smile and smile often. not some mummer's smile, but a genuine one. to achieve this, drink plenty of lemonade in the summer; inhale the scent of spring blossoms; indulge yourself with a hot mug of rich dark cocoa in the winter; and watch the trees let go of their leafy spawns in magnificent fashion during autumn. find your happiness in things if not or rather than in the ever-unstable human.