he held me up when i was down he always knew how to make me smile he knew where i wanted to be and he held me i loved his smile his silly cloths the ways to make him smile but now its time that we go i can't help but cry for all those nights i was his i can't be wish that i wasn't so selfish i want to be stronger to carry on but its so hard when he's all that was left of me i dont want to show that im weak i dont want him to know im sorry i hate the way he makes me laugh and i hate that in it all i keep running back back to his smile to his smell to his love but its not there anymore i try to search for it i try to hold it but everything has slipped through my fingers i cant concentrate on hw i cant think about my goals i cant look forward and but looking back is painful idk where to go or what to do my life is over and its all because of you he left me with nothing my heart in shambles my life a mess he left me with nothing my sad life i will pick myself back up i will not be defeated by love but for now im miserable for now i can't help but cry and for now i am allowed to be depressed cause i fell hard and i'm an idiot for doing so an idiot for falling for another boy an idiot for letting him have the best of me just to destroy it why did i think it would work why did i believe him why does it hurt