I'm so dead tired right now. The past few nights I have not slept for more than five hours. It's killing me. My friend is going to call his doctor today and get my more sleeping pills. Thank god for that. When I make up it also feels like I have not slept at all. I look like shit and I'm starting to feel like it also. Because of the lack of sleep I'm all getting rather bitchy. hehe I'm that way to begin with but it is getting worse than usual. I'm not really eating either. I'm sure the contribute to me not have energy. OH god if my best friend knew I was not eating she would be kicking my ass. It's not really a choice I'm making. I'm a bit stressed and well when I get stressed or upset I can't really eat. Well I can but lets just say it doesn't stay down and puking is harder on your body then starving. I know that from my friend who decided he wanted to be anorexic. He decided he wanted to lose weight and fast and not have to exercise. He has more issues than I do. Not that we dont' all have our issues he just has twice as many and could solve alot of them if he would just take his meds. So I joined this new site and it has the prettest man on it and well he lives around close to where I plan on living in S Cali. http://www.fetischmusic.com/freeks/ViewProfile.asp?MemberId=465. I'm a sucker for the dark hair and light blue/green eyes. So I e-mailed him through this site. Kind of hoping I would hear back from him but no such luck. Not yet any ways. Who knows maybe I will hear from him. *crosses fingers* Shit I have things I should be doing. Fuck we have to talk to the landlord today also. We had to cancel on him yesterday and well not like he ever called back to say he would he here either. Really hope all this doesn't have to go to court. All right I'm off to do something productive.