I hate being alone. It is just getting to me so much right now being around my friend and her husband. Any ways last night I went and watched movies with a friend then we went swimming. Well actually we spent most of the night in the jacuzz. God I need to get one of those. I had lots of fun. Some time soon he is going to take pictures of me. I have seen his work. He is so fucking talented. He is actually up in Santa bar. in a photography school. I'm really excited about getting my picture taken by him. Like I said he is really good. I usually end up hating pictures of me. I like them at first but then end up hating them. I'm sure I will like the pictures he takes of me for more than a few days or weeeks. Well today my friend I'm staying with bought me a new belly button ring. It is so sexy. Well I think it is sexy. She got the same exact one also. She also bought a tank top I wish I could have bought myself. It said Kinkys open twenty four hours a day. She also got one with Betty Page on it. She is so good to me. I'm going to hate leaving here. Oh well I guess I will just have to make alot of trips back down to see her. mmmmmmm we went to Joes crab shack for dinner. I of course had crab legs and damn they were good. Now I'm sitting alone in their computer room typing this entry. I need to find a man and soon. OH my same friend who I went and watched movies with helped me out a bit. He found out the age of some guy for me. It was rather cool of him. He knows some of what I'm going through right now and he sees the same things I do. So I know part of what is upsetting me is not there just because I wanted to see it. Any ways we talked about going to see Van Helsing today but didn't go. I really want to see that movie. Well shit I'm making myself really depressed I think I will go now. I need to try to get this shit off my mind. I need to go exercise.