All right I'm not sure what to do. I have this friend. We make each other miserable. I think we should just go our different ways, but this person doesn't think we should. I just don't get it. I mean I know I don't mean that much to this person. So why they want to stay friends is beyond me. I mean this person could never even pick up the phone and call me, but will call people they have never met before. I just want to say fuck it. For the most part I have put more into the friendship then they have, and I don't think I have it in me to do that any more. I mean they say they don't like to let go of people, but fuck this person thinks of people he has barely known good friends. Like some egotistical cunt that is on this site. She would be the one I meantion in a later journal entry. He went to her journal and I was reading one of her entrys with my friend. Man that girl things very fucking highly of herself and I bet she isn't that great at all. Any ways back to my point I would bet any one he puts more effort into this friendship with someone they have never met then they do with our friendship. This being why I think I should just walk away from it all. I mean I really just don't really know what to say to this person any more. I went to the party with this person the other night. Met a really nice guy who wanted my number so we could go out some time. Well all I had to give him was an e-mail address. This friend who I have known for two year now won't help me find out his number. I mean I just don't get why he wouldn't want to help me out with that. Ack I'm making myself sick over this shit and I can't take it much longer. I know I don't mean much to this person. They just can't stand it when some one doesn't like them. Even if they don't like that person. So I think that is the only reason this person wants to stay friends. Fuck it's quarter after five I need to try to sleep. Ha we are suppose to do some thing together today. Shit I need to try to sleep so I'm out of here for now.