hihihihihi :] i'm in jersey! FINALLY. haha :] i might go to the lake today, but i probably won't, cause i'm really tired and bored and don't feel like doing anything today :] eh, plus i have to bake 2 cakes for the bake sale on Saturday because stupid me offered to do it so dawn didn't have to pshh why must i be so nice? :] haha oh well byeee! :]

yes. i went to an amusement park yesterday. yes. i met a boy. girlfriend? not sure. either way, he's nice. but he lives either 2 or 4 hours away from me. [don't ask] anywho, i don't know, i've been pretty busy lately. school's out, summer's started, and i'm moving tomorrow. crazy. i'm still not completely sure if i'm staying for the summer or for the year. i'll have to figure that out over the summer. there are a lot of things going on. and part of me just wants to get the hell out of here. and the other part is like, well maybe i should give it another chance. but i think i'm done with chances so bye.....

15 days of school left. 20 days counting weekends. I'm excitedddd ♥ so here's a small update: I'm gonna be in New Jersey for the ENTIRE summer. yay4me =) I might move there for good, but I'm gonna see how the summer goes first. Anywho, last night I went to a little show thingy at this little café downtown. It was actually pretty fun. The music was good, but the bands didn't impress me. They had absolutely no idea how to psych out a crowd. So I was slightly bored through the whole thing. But it was alright :] There's another show this weekend I might go to. But that's only if I can't get a ride to New Jersey to go to the Amouratha show.. which I doubt I'll be able to so I'm most likely going to a weird Pennsylvania show... Ahhhh I can't wait till summerrrrr! The End :]

k so today's gonna be crazy =) I'm in New Jersey at the moment, which is cool cause I looove New Jersey! =) And tonight's the Antler's Ball which is even cooler cause I looooveee the Antlers!! =) hehe. I'm most likely doing my 15 minute long english speech on them too. Which'll be EVEN COOLER. Cause I betcha Mr. Brosious doesn't know A SINGLE THING about them so therefore couldn't tell me if I say anything wrong! mwahaha =) Anywho. Last night, I worked a Friday night dinner. It wasn't very busy though so Jaimie, Ashley and I didn't even really work the dinner at all. We just worked on the setup for the ball tonight. There's supposedly going to be 80 people, but we all have a feeling we're not gonna be ready for how many people will be there. My mom has to work it haha! That's really only funny because tomorrow there's a mother's day breakfast that I have to work at. So tonight my mom has to work for me then tomorrow I have to work for her haha. I'll probably only be like, busting tables which is easy but I hate it haha =( I hope it's not too busy heh. But at least I'll have another day with my Antler friends haha and maybe I can get away with wearing my supercool reindeer Antler hat thingy I got last night haha good times =) I dunno, I don't have much else to say. It's been a busy weekend, I'm only on cause I'm waiting for it to be 2:00 when Dawn's gonna be coming home to do my hair and stuff. I don't know if I should put my dress on before she gets home or not though *shrug* oh well. I'll put some pictures up when I get some. *obviously* ♥

hey I'm home alone, cool. =) haha now I don't really know what to say. oh yeah, I guess I have a boyfriend now. He's a weirdo. I might break up with him haha we've been dating for 6 days. My longest relationship EVER. But every time I decide okay I'm gonna break up with him, he says something really nice to me and then I'd feel bad for breaking up with him.. And I guess Matt and I are okay. You never knew Matt and I weren't okay though =p so I guess I'll tell you the story: alright. on Saturday, the night of the elk's show. the night before i started dating joe [what a rhyme, btw] anywho. that night, matt, joe and jimmy all slept over. and i kissed him [matt]. and he pretended like he was asleep. given, it was like 4 in the morning, but he had been talking to me like 2 seconds before that. now, the reason he pretended to be asleep was because my cousin, dawn, was like nobody touches my little cousin tonight or else. and she gave them all the speech about 2430o5iwer439 times. and matt didn't wanna betray dawn's trust. that's a good reason to do what he did, don't get me wrong, but it still pissed me off that he did it. then last night, I get a message on myspace from Matt saying I'm sorry blah blah blah I hope we're still cool blah.. and I was like way to wait a week? I told him it was okay though, even though I was still pissed.. cause we've been friends for a long time and he really did have a good reason. But I also asked him if it wasn't for Dawn, would he have done the same thing. and he said he honestly didn't know. so that kinda pissed me off too.. I dunno. I've liked Matt for a long time. But I have a boyfriend now I guess, whatever.. oh and on the subject of being okay with Matt.. I guess Nathan and I are okay now too. I dunno, it's been a confusing past few weeks.. On a lighter note.. Thursday was the band/chorus concerttt! I thought it was going to suck, but we all sounded really good! I was happy =) Oh and on Wednesday, we went to the envirothon for ecology! haha it was fun! we lost miserably.. but we sure know how to play a mean game of duck, duck, goose! =) mm, and I might be goin to New Jersey on Thursday night instead of Saturday morning. Cause I don't have school Friday, but my mom has to work so she can't take me Friday. And I have to be there too early on Saturday to be able to go after my mom gets home and still make it on time. So mom said she'd try to get me there Thursday night instead, which is cool. =) I really really can't wait till Saturday.. kbye! :) ^ probably the ugliest girls ever. =) hahaha i♥them.

Well, today's Sunday. And that means I have to go back to school tomorrow. oh joyss. Only 5 days! And then I SHOULD be in New Jersey ♥ for the show on Saturday! SO. I'm excited x a lot. I might have to pay for Jared though. Since I get in for free, he asked me to get him in haha but I can't. But I'm a nice friend anyway so I told him if he can't get the money, that I'd pay for him. But I just hope I can goo =/ cause that would suck a lott if I can't. =/ IN OTHER NEWS: I watched Ren & Stimpy today. and it made me happyyyy. The End. Have some more pictures!: ^me. ^me again. ^Big pile-on on top of Anthony during Amouratha's show at the Lodge. ^Matt & Connor. ^Matt, Connor, Ryan. ^all of us. I think I'm in the process of falling off Amanda's leg though haha =p

Well, today was the last day of school for the next 4 days. Easter vaca and whatnot. Exciting?? Probably not. My plans for this weekend: Friday - nothing Saturday - run Sunday - New Jersey Monday - run pretty uneventful besides Sunday I guess. But that's not really anything. Just an easter egg hunt and dinner with the family. Jimmy's in Wayne now I think so he's not even gonna be there. Plus I doubt Ryan and Jimmy are in love enough yet to spend easter together =P [don't ask] As for the running, I have to. Weisgold said 2 days out of the 4 we have to run. So Saturday and Monday I'm gonna run like 2 miles I guess. Easy. But still kind of annoying haha. But I can't skip it cause we go back from our break on Tuesday and have a meet so yeah I'd just die at the meet if I did nothing the next 4 days. At least I get to break tomorrow though cause today was a haard practice. And now! Pictures of some of my friends from New Jersey: That's my favorite picture of my friend's band, Amouratha. They were playing one of the Elk's Lodge shows in New Jersey. Don't ask about the shorts haha it's kind of a long story =) and I'm not really sure myself haha. That's Matt who's a complete idiot. He was moshing at Jimmy, Ryan and Anthony's birthday party and he hit his hand off Ryan's leg or something haha. He's a big baby =) Jimmy, Matt and Connor trying to be ghetto or something. I dunno, they're white =) And last but definitely not least: We're all swaying back and forth and singing Aerosmith! I love these kids.. ..Hats off to everlasting memories. ♥

There was supposed to be a track meet today, but it got cancelled for absolutely NO REASON AT ALL. yeah. I guess it's okay though. We had a hard practice instead. It was fun. And hard haha. Plus, I worked like, uberhard. So not only was it a hard practice to start off with but I made it even harder cause I WORKED MY TRACKASS OFF. haha yeah trackass, it's a new word. But yeah the meet was rescheduled for this coming Thursday so it's all good. In other news: I might be moving to New Jersey this summer. Mhm. It's kind of a long story, but I asked my mom & she said she'd think about it and ask Dawn and stuff and see what she says about it. It would be so cool if I could. The only problem is, I dunno if I can or not, and I'm telling everybody I might be moving and then I might just have to be like, yeah not going. At least I'm not telling them I'm definitely moving I guess. But I'm just hoping so bad that I can go, that I'm telling everybody.. I hate this town. ♥

TRACK MEET TODAY. mmmmhmmm. Well I guess I did alright. I tripped twice on the 100. Which REALLY sucks. cause the 100 is so short, there's not enough time to make up for dumb mistakes like that. I don't remember what my time was. It sucked A LOT. it was like.. 16 something. yeah. The 400 was gay. Cause I don't like the 400 to begin with. I got like 1:27 I guess. Which I know I could do WAYY better than that. But that was just as good as I could do today. So that's okay. Plus I have my allergies starting up. And they like to make my throat close up on the second turn of the 400, uh huh. So that was fun. But then hearing Mr. Weisgold's "baby steps" speech again cheered me up haha I'm not even being sarcastic. And then Collin.. who's a freaking BEAST on the track.. he cheered me up too =) cause we made this deal that if I won he would give me a hug. And he came over to me after the 400 and was like "did you win anything?" and I was like "psh no." and then he was like "well that's okay, I'll give you a hug anyway." so I was like aw yay =) haha he's a sweetie. Despite the fact that he seems to get some sort of enjoyment out of telling me to be quiet ALL THE TIME! haha Yeah and then the 200. Which was kinda weird, cause I've never run the 200 before, so it was a new thing. I didn't start with blocks cause that was what messed me up on the 100 in the first place. But I ran it well. I think my time was like 34.5 so that's pretty good for first meet and first time ever doing that event. I kept up with everybody for the most part. It's the turns that kinda mess me up though, so I need to work on that, mhm. But yeah. That's all I got for today, folks! =) ♥

list of things that hurt: throat head leg stomach nostrils eyes heart. I'm sick. I'm tired. I'm depressed. And I'm lonely. So I guess this is how today's gonna go.. =/ Pennsylvania ruins my life.

Today was the first track meet! It was only a scrimmage so it didn't count as anything. We were against Abington who are MAADD good. I did the 100 and the 400. The 100 rocked a lot. I did really good in that actually. I was just happy I wasn't the last one to finish though haha =) The 400 suckeddd. It was so hard. I was runnin, runnin, runnin. And I still finished like WAYY behind everybody. I wasn't that mad though cause like, that was a bitch of a race and at least I finished. I thought for a second there that I wasn't even gonna finish haha It was really fuuuun though. =) Like the ride back & going to Wendy's and stuff. Loads of fun. A bunch of stupid jokes. It was just a great time. I'm glad I went, even though I was like omgidontwantto=( haha and I was so nervous. But it was really great. =)

Well today was horrible. but I just got to the point where I don't feel so bad so I don't really want to get into it at the moment. I think I'm in love. I kid you not. I think, it was love at first sight =[ Yeah. I'm not even kidding. And I know it sounds pretty gay. But it's not like I don't know the kid. I mean, now I do. And he was sleeping over my cousin's house the same night I was.. and like, all this stuff happened & it was amazing. And it was probably the best night of my life. And it's weird. And crazy. And I don't know.. And I think he likes me. I mean, he was definitely acting like he did. But I guess he likes 3 other girls too. And he said he was gonna ask one of them out yesterday. And I'm so scared that he did. And so scared that she said yes. And I don't even know what to think.. and he lives so far away. He lives in New Jersey. And there's nothing I can do to stop him from asking that girl out.. and from going out with her.. And I really hope he doesn't =/ I don't even know what I think anymore. I'm going to see him again on April 3rd though. So we'll see what happens then. That's only about.. like, a week & a half from now. And so yeah.. a week & a half till I find out if he has a girlfriend?? Worst week & a half of my life??

I'm so excitedddd!! Tomorrow's Grim Reaper Day for SADD and I get to die at 2! =) haha yessss! It's amazing. And practice really was awesome today. I dunno, I got really exhausted during the warmups but then I was fine for the most part during the actually hard parts of practice haha I dunno what happened =P maybe it was cause I drank more water during the hard parts & I just got like, dehydrated or something during warmups. *shrug* practice was still fun. And he asked me for my sn! HE asked ME! OH EM GEE. That rhymed, I'm amazing. I know it's pretty gay to be excited about him asking me for my sn. but we were talking & he's really sweet =) and he makes me laugh! =) and it's great. And I don't wanna like, fall for him too fast like I did with the past like 1564894357 boys I've almost gone out with. yeah almost. but at least us talking, it's a start =) SATURDAY'S ALMOST HERE. I'm going to die tomorrow, and go to heaven Saturday! Hey, pergutory shouldn't be TOO bad. =( hahaha!! ♥

TODAY WAS THE WORST DAY I'VE HAD IN A LOONG TIME =( 1st period everybody was freaking out & being gay and I was seriously gonna shoot Suzanne if she said one more word. and of course Computer Tech was no walk in the park. I WAS FREAKING OOOOUTT. I don't like Mr. Tyler =( and I couldn't figure out the stupid thing we were supposed to be doing on the computers and I messed it up & probably will have to start it over. and Driver's Ed I had to make up some stupid paper I didn't hand in but I had no idea what I was doing so I just faked the whole thing. and I had an Algebra test on top of the World Cultures test. during which Ms. Khale yelled at me for hiccupping..? Whatever. I found out that Mrs. Holbert probably won't be back for the rest of the year so we have to deal with Mrs. R and I seriously hate that woman. I dropped my CD player and it broke. and now Devin's taken to basically stalking me. and this was supposed to be a good week =( I can't wait for Saturday.

Well, I guess I don't really have anything to say haha. school tomorrow =( but I s'pose it's alright cause I had the most boring weekend in the history of boring weekends haha.. oy vey. The Pink Panther = about the gayest movie EVERR. =( Anywho, I got the new Hawthorne Heights CD on Wednesday when I went to NYC =) it rawkss. =) and I'm going to NJ Saturday!! yesss. and we don't have school Wednesday! THIS WILL BE THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE. [or something =)] as long as Yennie & I don't get in a fight. which I think we're kinda getting close to cause she's being real.. I dunno lately. whatever.. l8er!!

Well, I guess I don't really have anything to say haha. school tomorrow =( but I s'pose it's alright cause I had the most boring weekend in the history of boring weekends haha.. oy vey. The Pink Panther = about the gayest movie EVERR. =( Anywho, I got the new Hawthorne Heights CD on Wednesday when I went to NYC =) it rawkss. =) and I'm going to NJ Saturday!! yesss. and we don't have school Wednesday! THIS WILL BE THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE. [or something =)] as long as Yennie & I don't get in a fight. which I think we're kinda getting close to cause she's being real.. I dunno lately. whatever.. l8er!!

Well, I guess I don't really have anything to say haha. school tomorrow =( but I s'pose it's alright cause I had the most boring weekend in the history of boring weekends haha.. oy vey. The Pink Panther = about the gayest movie EVERR. =( Anywho, I got the new Hawthorne Heights CD on Wednesday when I went to NYC =) it rawkss. =) and I'm going to NJ Saturday!! yesss. and we don't have school Wednesday! THIS WILL BE THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE. [or something =)] as long as Yennie & I don't get in a fight. which I think we're kinda getting close to cause she's being real.. I dunno lately. whatever.. l8er!!

Well, I guess I don't really have anything to say haha. school tomorrow =( but I s'pose it's alright cause I had the most boring weekend in the history of boring weekends haha.. oy vey. The Pink Panther = about the gayest movie EVERR. =( Anywho, I got the new Hawthorne Heights CD on Wednesday when I went to NYC =) it rawkss. =) and I'm going to NJ Saturday!! yesss. and we don't have school Wednesday! THIS WILL BE THE BEST WEEK OF MY LIFE. [or something =)] as long as Yennie & I don't get in a fight. which I think we're kinda getting close to cause she's being really.. I dunno lately. whatever.. l8er!!

NYC was aMAZing!! =) I'm not gonna get into all the details cause I just got back from track practice & I'm pretty sore =p and my mom's making STEAK! for dinner =) so I'm just plain too lazy to talk about it hehe. I just thought I'd keep everybody in the loop! =)

Yay, I'm going to NYC! tomorrow for the French trip and we're gonna see a broadway playyyy♥ yesss. I'm so excited! =) I can't wait. It's gonna be so great. And we're stopping at the Rockaway Mall in New Jersey! on the way back =) I doubt I'll see anybody there. That would be cool if I did. Maybe I could run down to Hot Topic and see if Amanda's working! but I dunno if she works at Rockaway or Willowbrook. *shrug* But still, it's gonna be a good day =) AWESOME. AND. I get to miss school and it's an exused absence, YES. the only thing is I kinda feel bad I hafta miss track practice =( Mr. Weisgold doesn't care cause like, I paid for the trip & stuff and it's an excused absence from school and all that. But I'm just crazy like that to actually care haha most people would be like YESSSS. But not me haha. Oh well. =) Still gonna be a really cool day. =)