fuck, remember at the begining of the year when i was a good litle honor roll jr. beta freak who no one knew about? and now at the end of the year, i have no less than 3 school administrators monitoring me daily, and i cant even walk to lunch without hearing some absurd rumor. for gods sake, the principal and assistant principal held a meeting in front of my locker today. i have to start locking that, if they ever decide to go through it they'll be enthralled to unearth all of the "student of the month" awards i have managed to pluck off the walls (yes, your worst suspicions are confirmed. I cultivate the certificates the principal bestows upon the nerds). Plus my makeshift opium. i wish everyone would just die. im sick of jessica being a stupid jerk and greeting me with "whats wrong" everyday. i am fucking fed up with the counselor making me come into his office and "roll play" with him. and now i am going to scream.