randomly selected a mood, it happened to fall upon superior, however i feel less-than-stellar. my brain feels like a puddle. I'm slowly spiraling into insomnia. yesterday, i lied in bed for about 4 hours and rearranged the letters of my name in my head until I fell alseep at 5. After I fell asleep, i kept having these really weird and abstract dreams, then i would randomly wake up every few hours. When i woke up, i may as well not have slept at all, because that's what it felt like. It's been goign on like this for weeks. I am sick of sleeping for 3 hour restless chunks from 5 AM to 2 PM, and having 1 real meal a day. my skin has this gross sallow tint to it now, and even my mom has commented that i look like I'm sick. blah. and she thinks i'm annorexic, but that's unavoidable because i'm only awake for dinner. anna's [xbloodxfeederx] dad had another episode, so now our other 2 friends (allie and rebecca) want to know whats goign on. i don't know if she should tell them though, because i'm sure they would be concerned and all that, but alot of people who aren't used ot hearing or knowing about that sort of stuff would get nervous and probably try to get someone to intervene, which would probably just create more problems. so i am not sure. allie really wanted to know what was goign on with the cutting and the drinking too, but once she figured it out she kind of didn't want to ever think or tlak about it again. if anyone can give me as much information on private schools as possible, that would be superb and swell.