So ok I’ve been letting myself get a nervous wreck the last couple days over total nonsense that isn’t even worth spending my time on. I’m freaking out about every little thing and I hate it. I need to relax and realize that this isn’t the same situation and there is absolutely nothing for me to be worried about. People really need to mind their own business too. I hate when people put their two cents in when they have no idea about anything that is happening in my life. If I didn’t ask you for your opinion I most likely do not want it! Fucking remember I said that too. I’m so sick of people thinking they know me, when in all actuality I’ve only talked, seriously, to about four people since I got out of school. So no one, except those four people, know shit about my life. It makes me so incredibly happy that I never have to see any of the people I dislike ever again. That makes me extremely happy and every time that I hear that people where saying this and that about me I laugh because I’m like why do you even care about me at all? You are never going to see me again, let go of the hate. It makes me laugh so much because I could seriously care less about anything that is going on in anyone else’s life (cept like four people). Like why would I bother to hold grudges and keep up the hate I had for people in high school. It’s such a waste of time. It’s only holding me back and you know what it totally proves who the bigger person is in this situation. I’ve grown up. I left all the fifth grade shit behind me, I’m ready to start new. My priorities are exactly how I want them to be. I am exactly who I want to be. I wouldn’t change anything about myself at this moment in time. And as far as the people who hate me go, I could care less what you think of me, and frankly I could care less what you’re doing and who you are. I’m a beautiful, intelligent, 18 year old woman, who figured herself out and is working to make all her dreams come true. Sorry if that sounds conceited or self centered, but the one thing I realized is that what really matters in life is that you are happy. Me and a friend of mine had such an amazing conversation about that a couple of weeks ago. He totally reassured me that I was totally on track and exactly where I should be in life. He commended my new outlook on life and told it was amazing I had this revelation now and not 30 years down the road. It was so amazing to talk to someone that was genuinely happy for me and understood exactly what I was talking about and supported it 110%. It was one of those talks that left you feeling totally refreshed and ready for anything. I wish I had more of them. There is another thing I am tired of doing, wishing. I want to make things happen. I think this new attitude I’ve adopted is going to work out awesome for me in college because I’m ready to work for what I want now as opposed to just sitting back and letting everything come to me. I feel so much more motivated now and I love it. I can’t wait to start college, even though I am going to miss everyone SOOO much. But that is a long way away and I still have a huge part of the summer to enjoy with everyone. I just want to hang out and enjoy life with Karen, my wonderful boyfriend, Jeff and a few others like Ed and Dunner, two totally amazing people I am so glad I got close to. They both make me feel awesome and I love hanging out with both of them. But anyways, I’m trying to decide which Broadway show I want to see now. It’s been an annual event for me and my mom for the past three years that we go to a play in New York over the summer. It is totally awesome and it’s an amazing day for us to just hang out and chill, in my favorite city in the world. I love it. So I am in the process of doing that now, I’m learning toward Rent even though she wants to see Fiddler on the Roof, which I honestly don’t care, because as long as I’m in New York I will be totally happy. So I’m going to go do some more research to help me decide and I will talk to ya’ll tomorrow. Felt amazing to get all that out, as usual! Goodnight.