So ok there has been A LOT going on in my life and not in the sense that I’ve been doing a lot just a lot of emotional and internal conflicts (if you want to call them that) have been occurring in my life. I have no idea what is going on with Matty. I never see him, never get to talk to him and when I do get a chance to talk to him about it I end up in virtually the same place I started in. It is extremely frustrating, especially since we aren’t going to get to see each other at all in like three weeks cause I’m leaving for school. I don’t think he understands how much I like him and want to be with him. We have such a great time together, well at least I know I have a great time, can’t say much for him though cause I really have no idea if he has a good time with me or not. I would like to hope that he does but you can never really be to sure when you’re dealing with Matty. Anyways, now on top of all that I have this huge other drama that I have to deal with. I wouldn’t call it a drama actually, it is just something that adds to the already occurring dramatic mess I like to call my life. I can’t really say anything else about it, just that it has so many different thoughts racing through my head I don’t even know which end is up anymore. I swear to God my life is a soap opera. So ok that may not seem like that much to deal with but believe me it is. I let my emotions get the best of me and usually let them run my life, what can I say, that’s me, take me or leave me baby. So put that on top of going to college, which is a totally traumatic situation to deal with right now, considering all the stuff I have yet to figure out before I leave, I’d say I have a pretty stressful life right now, maybe it wouldn’t be for anyone else, but it is for me.
Wednesday was pretty much the only salvation in my week. I went to New York with my mom to see Rent. What an amazing show. The music was absolutely incredibly. And plus the fact that I was in the greatest city on the planet helped too. I am absolutely in love with New York, thank God my future career choice almost requires that I have to live there, how awesome is that, not to mention the apartment after college Karen and I are getting, right girl :-P Anyway, I talked to my roommate today and she seems really cool, I can’t wait to talk to her more and meet her later in the month, it should be an awesome time, hope she can keep up with all my drama :-P Went out with Jeff last night too. That's always a fun tme. We went for ice cream and to the movies to see Dukes of Hazard, it was ok. JC called and we had some fun with that for a while then we called Billy and I left a fun voicemail for him, then he hung up on us so eff him :-P It was a great time overall though, I have to hit up some more of those late movies before I leave. Yeah so Karen and I are going to see Kelly Clarkson tonight, cannot wait! When I stop and think how many amazing people I have seen in concert it is amazing. Kelly Clarkson, Josh Groban, Sarah Brightman, Trans Siberian (twice), The Backstreet Boys (three times come Friday), Alicia Keys, and not to mention the three Broadway plays: Phantom, The Lion King and Rent. I’ve seen nearly all of my idols live and in person, I can’t even believe that. Now all I have to see is Mariah Carey, Joss Stone, and Christina Aguilera. Hopefully one day I’ll get to see all them too. Ok so I suppose that is all I have to say for now, I am in a rather inspirational entry kinda mood but I’ll save that for later when Karen is taking a shower when we come home, if we ever indeed do :-P
get a life.