I havent made a post in almost a month! Holy moly. Going to a Toga party tonight, although I was invited out of pity ("Tessa you wanna come? So you're not left out" thanks) but whatevs. RIP Matthew Mckay. Jan 28 1990- Sep 30 2007 I think about you everyday. Harry is sick. Please let him get better.

So today I got in an argument with Alex over Finger 11. It was good. He's awesome. I feel so needed, because Bob asked me to work tomorrow and I've never been asked to work there before :)

Justin came back!! YAY!! Today is his birthday and I don't think I will get to see him :( He came over early and we made pancakes and watched the office. Then I showered and we went to his house for abit. Then to Ikea. it was fun. I have to stop walking up the stairs to look at stuff haha. Then we went to his house and he made me pasta. It was very good. Then he dropped me off at home for a couple hours. Picked me up later and we saw Harry Potter in the IMAX! 3D! It was good. Then he came over and we started to watch a movie then fell asleep. I missed him!

Yeah, alright. So I don't even know how to explain it. And I don't like metaphors because they are lies. But I'm incredibly happy right now. In my life, everything. It's amazing. M: I'm so happy right now B: Me too M: I'm happier than you B: No you're not M: Why not? B: Because I'm JABBING YOU. (proceeds to jab me in the ribs) asshole.

Things are just amazing. Ben is amazing. The other night I could have had the best sex of my life if it wasn't for me being sick and us having to use condoms because of the antibiotics!! Fucker. It was still really great though. On saturday I fell in love with him all over again. We got free gum for kissing for the camera suckazzz. And free snocone cause Ben's jewish. Not much else has happened... he spent the night on thursday... it was nice. Yup. I miss JJ a lot

So yesterday I traveled to Edmonton with Jenn, Ang, and Jenn's mom Heather. It was good. I agree with Angela, there are no pretty people. And they are definitely much slower than people in calgary. Whyte ave is not even half as good as 17th ave. We stopped in a field of yellow and we most definitely DID turn yellow. But a spotty kind of yellow - not completely yellow. That would be strange, and I would have to support this statement with a photo of course. Who's gonna believe I'm actually yellow? Unless I have jaundice, which I don't. Anyway ben is here got to go

I think i shall watch a movie later tonight. I worked all week. I am sick, I have laryngitis. It's fucking sweeeeet. Ang and Jenn and JJ surprised me by showing up at my house with balloons and a sign saying happy birthday last saturday. It was amazing. I love them SO FUCKING MUCH YO. JJ and I got drrrunk the night before he left for euroland. He had to bike home. it was funny. not much else has happened... today i woke up and thought "I think I'll dye my hair" so i did.

I am so bored. Ben just ditched, but it's understandable since his parents just got home. I wonder when I'll see him again? He never seems to tell me. I really wanna work a full day tomorrow. I'm so bored with life. Ugh :S My stomach muscles hurt so much. man does that kid have unrealistic goals. he really never thinks things through. But whatever.

Ok so my birthday was deece. Um sunday night ben and i went to watch fireworks and went to Jubilations, it was good. He spent the night. Then we woke up had sexy shower time stuff umm. went to his house played vids. did some more stuff? i dont really remember watched the fireworks that night again. he was with me my whole birthDAY, all 24 hours of it. woo! my bday last year sucked balls. i remember that much about it. anyway now bens being a complete douchebag and working like crazy "sorry i have to work blah blah" like he doesnt even care if we see eachother. well whatever I just hope i see him friday. TALL LATTE! he makes it go one day at a time. "yo i work on tuesday this time till this time"..ok sweet. then he texts me at like, 10 tuesday night. I work tomorrow too cant hang out sorry!. texts me the next night. WORK TOMORROW TOO CANT HANG OUT SORRY. YOU KNOW NORMAL PEOPLE FIND OUT THEIR WEEKS SCHEDULE? CANT YOU DO THAT? he so clueless sometimes.

So last night was actually so much fun. Well yesterday in its entirety was. I wake up and get a call from Justin, asking if I wanna hang out? I say sure, and then he says he's coming over... Okay neato. He comes over, and I shower while he watches The Office. Then we biked to Chinook to check out longboards at Quicksilver and Skaters. Then we went back to my house. I get a call from Ben and he is coming over. Then the 3 of us went to subway and only ben and I ate. Then we drove justin to my house so he could get his bike and go home for a bit. Ben and I went and bought a PS2 for him cause he broke his. Then we go back to my house and chill for a bit. Then out to pickup Justin, and then to the grounds. Saw Finger Eleven. I didn't want to waste money on rides so we didn't do much after that. Drove justin home and ben came in for about 5 minutes then left. It was actually really wonderful. I love Ben so much.

Well. FUCK YOU is all I have to say about a lot of things right now.

awww people like meee *blush* it makes me feel loved! apparently tika's brother likes me. and evan always flirts with me!! aww. cute.

So grad was good I thought. It was sorta boring but I liked getting all dressed up and stuff. Ben looked soooooooooooooo good. alistair's a fucking idiot though. Tika's party was so good hahaha. Ben drops me off and I'm just about to go in the door when Tika opens it and FREAKS OUT!! She didn't think I was actually gonna stay haha. So drinking ensued. Not sure if I'm upset with myself, or happy with myself for talking to him. I sorta feel better. I love to hate, but I can't even remember why I hate him anymore. Whatever. Met some coooo people. Foreman's girlfriend had to be picked up by her parents, the cops and ambulance were there to see if she had alcohol poisoning. She didn't. She's ok. Some creepy old man was there. Ugh, haha. Soo foreman and I go to play some vids and we both passout on the couch then decide to move to the bed and crash there. Overall good night!!! HAPPY BIRFDAY TIKII

I kinda feel bad about it, but you know, I want to hang out with Martika, so yeah I'm gonna ditch out. I mean, I'll be with a bunch of people I don't know, while you're getting drunk with them. So of course I'm going to go to a former best friend's party at her bro's. I'm actually so excited. It's going to be a GREAT TIME. And I get to stay the night. WOO. Poooo

So today is Nic's Birthday!!! YAY!!!!! We bought him a cell phone. and we stuck angela in a big box, had everyone write all over the box, and made her pop out with the phone!! Soo cuute!! im going over to nic's later too!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! soo fun I hope something awesome happens to me on my birthday :( im gonna try and make my birthday last at least 3 days haha. non-stop partying

yesterday was cute. i had a great time. i love youu

I went to Canmore with Ben for a night. It was absolutely amazing.

Gypsy, I will love you forever. And miss you always.

SOO LAST NIGHT. WAS SO FUN. Alistair came and picked me up in his brand spankin new truck. It's sexy. It's a "smoke" color. It's fuckin sweeeet. Then we went to his house and chatted with his parents and cousin for a bit, then went to Best Buy to buy a cable for his ipod. We saw Jon there and we chatted with him for half an hour and messed around with the mac computers. Then Alistair and i played guitar hero in the store but we had to leave cause it was closing. So we went back to his house and waited till 10, so he could go pick up Jon and Gaby. I stayed home and talked with his parents and cousin for like.. an hour haha, it was fun. I LOVE his family. Then they came home and we went downstairs and played pool. Drinking and stuff. Alistair's dad is so chill! he played pool with us and encouraged me to drink haha. He also told me to phone my mom and ask if I could stay later. So I did. We drank and played pool. Alistair's cousin slept on the couch. Then Blumer!! and his friend Trevor showed up. MAN it was so fun. I LOVE ALISTAIR SO MUCH. Haha. He was my boyfriend for the night. said some things we shouldn't have told anyone. oh wellllll. ok so blumer doesn't hate me!! and trevor was so awesome haha. I'm such an idiot. He txts me and is like "we're gonna get ben (blumer) drunk and rape him ok? but keep it on the DL" and I read it out loud before I read the last part hahaha. soo funny. Mannnnn those guys are so awesome. I'M SUCH A PIMP LOLZ.

Went and saw the sneak preview for Disturbia tonight with Ben, Justin and Evan FC. It was alright. Yeah. I like life quite a bit. Jenn's in Cali!! WOO!