i feel like a loser. just... a loser. in my depressed states i get all angry at absolutely everything.. and it really sucks. i start hating the world and everything in it and about it. then i start feeling that I am all alone and no one cares, but i know they do. but sometimes it feels like no one sees anything other than their own fantasies. their own realities, as 6700% puts it. everyone has someone. and i have...myself. i really only look forward to seeing my friends when they arent with their boyfriends. which isnt very often. and my friends always come and say things like "I miss him, I want to see him" or...whatever. you get it. and I dont know what to tell them. i really dont. cause i dont miss anyone. not really. not anymore... ok FINE i miss kristen. but shes not a boyfriend hahahaha. but ill see her today.. YESSS she just told me on msn that shes gunna get ready.. shes going to come over and we are going to watch my new tom green dvd!! well whatever. today I hate the world. ♥ ♠ ♣ Tessa...grr arg i want ler ahaha.