Woke up in the worst mood ever. Went upstairs and the first thing Mom said was "Are you ok? You like tired or angry or sad." Thank you for knowing, for once. I'm tired cause i got home at 2am....wicked concert by the way. I am mad at myself for.....that is no ones buisness. And I am sad cause i prepare for the worst, all the time, so when something bad happens to me I dont care about it, I see it as something not bad. And I think this is not good. It's making me not care. Like the day after the day angela almost died.. kristen phoned me crying... and we talked for a bit about it, and I didnt shed 1 tear. But then. I had to say to Kristen that i would phone her back and I cried myself dry, my parents sitting right there, wondering why I was crying. Now I know that my life has been going good for me but...I dont know, really. I am just sad sometimes. I have no fucking idea why. and it bugs the hell out of me, to be sad and not know why. It's just like when I'm sitting in the living room with mom and one small thing sets me off and i wont stop crying. I then get yelled at to get out of the room. But anyway enough with the negative shit. THE LEAD SINGER FROM BOY SANG TO ME! HOLY CRAP! excellent night. he was very hott too. Todd (lead singer of Pilate) accually remembered Kristen and Angela from the Stampede. I am happy for them! We were like.. right up against the stage.. and i took a guitar pick from it hah :P but Josh asked for 2 others that were on the stage...so yea its all good. Almost 100 entries of my boring life. Hehe. How wonderful. Anyway i hope i hang out with someone today..or something. Cause i dont want to sit at home and be depressed! That's just stupid. I finished my homework, just have to do my chores, but cant do them until mom gets back with food, to weak to vacuum and stuff...anyway... I think i need to play my guitar...and thats what I'll be doing.