well my christmakkuh was anything but merry. went to laynes last night.. had a good time then, matt went too, he brought his friend austin.. i seriously had no idea austin was 18 hahaha. then went home. i went downstairs and dad asked me to come open 1 present and I said I wanted to open them all tomorrow but no he made me come up.. i wasnt very happy cause I was tired and they wont ever let me do what I want. so i picked a present started opening it.. no inthusiasm...and dad freaked and yelled at me to get the fuck out of his sight and go to bed. so i went downstairs, not crying cause im used to it. I hear them yelling upstairs and then mom comes down and yells at me "YOU JUST FUCKING RUINED OUR CHRISTMAS!!!!" and some other stuff that I dont remember. when she left i just went to bed, still not crying. after a while mom comes down crying and says shes sorry and doesnt want to be mad but that my dads pissed as hell and i should go talk to him. i go upstairs and he gives me this huge lecture, he actually said "I unplugged your computer, I was going to take your guitar and smash it right in front of you, along with your amp. I was going to take your stereo and your TV and everything else you love." Thats when I lost it. The thoughts that went through my head, ohh man. Bad stuff I tell you. When he was done yelling at me, i said, through tears "If you would have smashed my guitar I would have been gone." and what I ment was "If you woulda fucking touched it i would have ran out of the house and onto fairmount and thrown myself infront of a car." excccccelllleeennnt. buuut i got some pretty good stuff this morning so its all good. maybe when im in a better mood (like tomorrow maybe) I will list everything. That is all. Later, Tessa.