sometimes I just think I need to be more selfless, ya know? Live for other people and not myself. I've been thinking a lot about the future....and what I am gunna do for a career... I should listen to music more.. not just as background noise or something to bob my head to, but actually listen. I choose the music I listen to because (most of it) is about the real life and what we don't see. It's all metaphorical... I need to write like that. I have a few ideas about some things. So basically I'm just rambling but in the long run I need to become happier. Happy with my life, myself, my choices, my friends but I need to be more open minded and not just shun things. But I can't help what I do and don't like. I need a day.