I never thought id need you there when i cried.*

and when you walked away. i count the steps you take. can you see how much i need you here. and the words i need you to say, will never come as easy as they use too. If you could only see how i need you here right..now...All ive been tryin to let you know. how much i love you. and when you go. i will miss you...I still remember as a child that smell of your room was always prettier than anyothere room in the house. and how i wished i had your bed instead of mine.

Every step in life i take it with pride.

Slowly down in life and when i have all my silence. i know i dont have a friend in you. and moments have faded. people we love have dissappeared. and when i sit there, and you smile. i not sure how iam suppose. to be and how to act. i try to show my love for my family. but they get lost in this and that. Growing up without a daddy. wasnt easy. i use to hate you. but that was when i didnt understand things, and yes i do believe you could of done better. but thats the fact of life. and all of your mistakes, have shown me the truth of life... and i wont do most of them.

i fight to hold on